Saturday, July 3, 2010
The U-turns In Life
Remember, if you’re headed in the wrong direction, God allows U-turns! ~Allison Gappa Bottke
Yesterday, I was drinking some coffee, driving down the freeway heading to a morning job. I had a lot on my mind, as I often do, and when I was about to take my exit, I realized that I was taking the wrong one. I had long since passed mine, and was heading to another highway that I often take. When I realized what I had done, I deliberated finding another way to get where I was going. The more I tried to figure a good route, the more my brain got foggy. So I finally decided the best course of action was to simply turn around and go back the way I came until I got to my exit again. As I was heading back, I started thinking about how this happens to us so much in life. We get caught up in the daily grind of survival mode. Working, shopping, cleaning, trying to take care of our families, and somewhere along the way we get off track. I currently have been going through some major changes in my life. This last year has been a rough one for me and my family. My son had gone through a major drug addiction, and now is getting help and going through the AA and NA program. It has been a blessing to see the transformation, that is nothing less than a miracle, but the process that got him to that point was devastating for me. It has made me have to take a deeper look at myself, and things that I have been avoiding dealing with. Ultimately, I am at a "crossroad" in my life and I am having to make some big decisions about what I want for myself, not just for now, but where do I want to be 10 years from now. I have been going to counseling, and have joined a wonderful church in Splendora, Tx. I am trying to take my time, and really think about the decisions that I make. It took me 40 years to get to the point in the road I am in now, so I know that it is going to be a slow healing process for me to get to a healthier place than where I am now. Basically, I am going to have to make a complete U-turn in the road. I am preparing myself for it, taking it slow, and thinking things through. It is going to be a painful process, but I know that I can do it. Nothing worthwhile is ever easy. Please pray that I will go the right dirrection in my life, and for strength to do so.
So many others have inspired me with sharing their life's struggles...What U-turns have you made in your life?